I know only what people think of me form what people tell me and what I observe, but what I do know truthfully is what I want people to think of me. If you were not someone who over thinks things like myself you would think I wasn’t concerned with fashion. I am not concerned with fashion in the sense that I don’t need to wear Gucci and prada to feel special, but truthfully we are all concerned with fashion. What we wear is one of the main things that defines who we are to those around us. I wear vans and a studded belt so I don’t look too preppy. I don’t wan tot look preppy cause I don’t want to look like everyone else. We wear what we wear not always as a marker to put us in a group but to mark us from the other groups we don’t wan tot be in.
I work as a cashier at the c-store. I work Thursday and Saturday nights from 4-11. On Thursdays I work with a man named jean who is around the age of my parents. On Saturday nights I work with matt, he’s about to be 24 but he’s a 4th year student in eth architecture program. I get along great with both of these guys. To jean I think he views me like he views his daughter, but he knows there is less to protect with me. He can tell me about the bob Marley concerts he went to in the 70’s and I tell him about school and how stressed out I am. To matt I am a friend. Matt is a responsible architecture student who does well cause he doesn’t go out as much as the typical college student which is also added to on account that his girlfriend just recently moved to Florida for her internship. Between mat and I we are the kind of people who get along well and can talk about most everything. In the c-Store I know what people tell me. People know me often as the girl that works in the c-store or the hot girl that works in the c-store or “hey I recognize you from some place”…”well I work in the c-store?”…”Yeah! that’s it! What’s up c-store girl?!” I think they just seem me as someone nice, but mysterious like all people who work at a store who you have a short interaction with.
When ever I go out of my dorm room I make that little extra effort to look a little less like shit. You never know who you might meet I say and if you’re going to meet someone interesting you might as well look nice. Some times I look nice by social standards, btu sometimes it’s simply the effort of keeping the dark circles under my eyes in chek. To be honest I don’t really think I’m noticed in public. I’m not someone who desires to stand out in a crowd. I don’t smell exceptionally nice, I don’t dress exceptionally well, I don’t try to stand out, and I mind my own business. In public I think people might see me as quiet, another indie girl or just another face in the crowd. It is not that I would not like to be noticed. Everyone likes to be noticed whether they admit it or not. It’s more of the Idea of why try to look nice on a ordinary day. It is the extraordinary ones that deserve the little extra.
To my friends, my roommates, and my boyfriend I am very much a different person than I would think most people, the strangers, would see me as. I am not quiet. In fact I am very loud and have a lot to say most of the time. I don’t usually care what people think of me and my friends know that. They know that I will tell them the truth, but I am only blunt because I expect the same in return. I would not do the things I do if I was not comfortable with the same treatment. My friends know I am a good person. I try my best to be a good person, but we all have our slip ups. I also try my best to be readable. By readable I mean that I like it that people can get some idea of who I am but just looking at me or having a short conversation with me because it means that I am being myself and being true to myself. I have spent a great deal of my life dealing with the fake and unsure and I am over it. I have my friends and those I depend on, but honestly I don’t need them to survive, but I want them and I think with people wanting can be more important than needing.
Truth is I do know a quite a bit about what people think of me, but I wouldn’t want to say it aloud even if no one will know because sometimes things don’t need to be said cause maybe those people might not think those things if you said them even if nearly no one would see.
2/5/07
an artists lie
What i took away from last class was the relization of our suposid "ever changing" society. Sure we are always changing in teh ways of technology, but our changes are more of an adaptation of what we have had in the past. Take our clothes for example. teh clothes from teh early, mid, to late 1900s we saw change. Conservaite, to 50's house wife, to teh 60's and hippies, to teh 80's and huge hair. but as we have progressed ot teh society we have today i see the "changes" we have as more of adaptations or incorperations of what we once had. I see what i wore today and nnotice that i wore bell bottoms. these pants were pants of teh 60's/ 70's and have been brought back.
I looked at teh post modern work we looked at last class and saw all teh works or duchaump and andy warhol. all of thir work was of the ready made. Granted they did make their work their own, but they adapted what was there or what once was to make it seem new when i reality what they created was not really created at all. They made money off and idea or theory which is simply rediculous. It is as if they are selling us our own shit back to us. The only people who can aford their art is the people who control the companies who created it to begin with. I cna apreciate the idea behind teh art, but why invest in something you can creat yourself or create on photo shop?
I looked at teh post modern work we looked at last class and saw all teh works or duchaump and andy warhol. all of thir work was of the ready made. Granted they did make their work their own, but they adapted what was there or what once was to make it seem new when i reality what they created was not really created at all. They made money off and idea or theory which is simply rediculous. It is as if they are selling us our own shit back to us. The only people who can aford their art is the people who control the companies who created it to begin with. I cna apreciate the idea behind teh art, but why invest in something you can creat yourself or create on photo shop?
1/31/07
orlan response
First off i have a lot of respcet for orlan and her work. In teh society we live in today it is imortant to most to folow teh standard of beauty that "they" tell us to follow. To show complet disreguard for societys stereotypes is honorable.
Orlan bean her sugical process as an already beautyful woman. With every surgery you were able to see little differnces btu teh most shocking was the choice of teh mona lisa's forehead. the exagerated look too teh beatuty out of orlan's face. BUt this puzzles me because so many are puzzled with teh mona lisa and find her oddly beautiful. her choice to pick her face from the timelessly famouse was risky and unique. her choice to stay awake during all her procedures shows her strength of character. the clothing the sugons wear is evenly rediculous.
I think in our society it is important to break down teh barriers of beauty and test the limits. Everyone looks different and not everyone can be a size 4, have perfect skin, and amazing hair. we are now left to determine our own definition of beauty. despite the generic definition of beauty society also accepts the rebelion against the norm. Orlan in simply a steping stone towards the rebelion.
Orlan bean her sugical process as an already beautyful woman. With every surgery you were able to see little differnces btu teh most shocking was the choice of teh mona lisa's forehead. the exagerated look too teh beatuty out of orlan's face. BUt this puzzles me because so many are puzzled with teh mona lisa and find her oddly beautiful. her choice to pick her face from the timelessly famouse was risky and unique. her choice to stay awake during all her procedures shows her strength of character. the clothing the sugons wear is evenly rediculous.
I think in our society it is important to break down teh barriers of beauty and test the limits. Everyone looks different and not everyone can be a size 4, have perfect skin, and amazing hair. we are now left to determine our own definition of beauty. despite the generic definition of beauty society also accepts the rebelion against the norm. Orlan in simply a steping stone towards the rebelion.
1/24/07
The Birthmark: Response
The Birthmark is a short story of a man named aylmer and his wife Georgina. Gerogina is the pesonification of beauty. She is very young and has many men who would love to claim her as their own. However geogina falls for Aylmer. Aylmer is not young and not handsome, but he is a passion driven scientist. Georgina is intrigued by Aylmer. Georgina, despite having spent time together before thir marrige, know little of eachother. Georgina covers her intelligence whith a coat if inocence and youthful comments and Aylmer does whatever it takes to cover his obsessions and his failed career.
As the story progresses Georgina investigates the real Aylmer and he discovers her intelligence. Georgina's only flaw is a small hand shaped birthmark on her cheek. Aylmer's scientific interests and sort of quest for perfection is what leads him to convincing Georgina to remove teh birthmark. She, wishing to please her husband agrees to teh proceedure. It is then it is revealed the true insanity of her husband. Fore shadowing throughout the story leads us to the ending of the ending of the story and Geogina's death.
It is in Georgina's death that we see the true relation of the text to technnology vs. nature. Aylmer sucessfuly removes teh mark, but despite his victory of sorts her problems still remaine. Being teh scientist he is Aylmer can not be happy with what her has. He strives to make absoloutly everything better. Even his beautiful, young and perfect wife is not what he desires. The last line of the text states, " ; he failed to look beyond the shadowy scope of time, and, living once of all eternity, to find the perfect future in the present." Some times it is the "imperfections" in nature that make nature perfect. It is not perfection that is perfect, but your perception of perfection that matters.
As the story progresses Georgina investigates the real Aylmer and he discovers her intelligence. Georgina's only flaw is a small hand shaped birthmark on her cheek. Aylmer's scientific interests and sort of quest for perfection is what leads him to convincing Georgina to remove teh birthmark. She, wishing to please her husband agrees to teh proceedure. It is then it is revealed the true insanity of her husband. Fore shadowing throughout the story leads us to the ending of the ending of the story and Geogina's death.
It is in Georgina's death that we see the true relation of the text to technnology vs. nature. Aylmer sucessfuly removes teh mark, but despite his victory of sorts her problems still remaine. Being teh scientist he is Aylmer can not be happy with what her has. He strives to make absoloutly everything better. Even his beautiful, young and perfect wife is not what he desires. The last line of the text states, " ; he failed to look beyond the shadowy scope of time, and, living once of all eternity, to find the perfect future in the present." Some times it is the "imperfections" in nature that make nature perfect. It is not perfection that is perfect, but your perception of perfection that matters.
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